I’m now 203 pounds, my wedding ring and my size 12 pants don’t fit me! This is technically considered OBESE – yikes! To make matters worse, I watched myself gain 10 pounds over a month when I had shingles last month. Yes, I had shingles at 41! This is not common and happened because of stress. Stress can do wonders to our bodies. When I’m nervously stressed, I can’t see food. When I’m stressed out, there isn’t enough. I was stressed out when I had shingles, it hit me the day I ate a full meal and then proceeded to eat more food and was talking to myself in the kitchen, saying “Paula, you just ate – stop this!”. I had reached my point that day.
I shared with my doctor what happened the previous month. She ran blood work and the results were suprising to me, I was expecting poor results. For instance, diabetes, thyroid, out of whack hormones (I had gestational diabetes), but that was all clear and I had high triglycides. This was a shock for me. I’ll admit, I was eating bacon, ice cream, drinking lattes, enjoying pastries and cheese, eating out and liking red meat. I was loving it – despite feeling awful about my weight. I felt like I was living.
Taking the first step is very hard. I felt guilty for feeling fat, it was like I let myself down. I felt upset that I couldn’t get better control of my food and betrayed by the fact that I wasn’t happy. I was stressed out! This was my trigger. What is yours?